My sweet Greta girl. She is now totally blind. No light is getting through her eyes. She has been very sick for the past few weeks too. I will spare you the details, but this includes me waking up to a huge mess every morning. I have been mad, disgusted, and frustrated by this whole situation. I have taken her to the vet, she is on 3 medications and prescription dog food. Caring for her takes a huge part of my day. She is only 10.
Now, I am just sad.
I finally lost it this morning as I sat at the computer on this glorious sunny morning. I saw her sitting and looking out the window like she always does, but I realized she saw nothing. And that was it for me. I finally started crying. This dog was my first baby. I threw a first birthday party for her complete with a cake and gifts. She has been through so much with me. She has helped me welcome two babies into this world. She has been everywhere with us. We are the annoying dog people who treat her like a human. She sleeps in our bed and she is welcome everywhere we go. She has been my girl for 10 years. I can't bear the thought of losing her, but I know it's coming.
"And tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you"
Coldplay
2 comments:
Ginger, I am so sorry. I haven't had a dog since I was in high school and our cocker spaniel had to be put to sleep. As much as I loved having a dog I just can't bear the thought of losing another. When Taylor got a bunny 2 years ago I swore I wouldn't get attached and I have! I don't know what I will do when she dies. I will be thinking about you as you deal with this.
Ginger-my heart hurts for you. Bottom line: it is tough. Keep loving on your sweet Greta.
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