The Christmas decorations are finally put away and the house looks sad and sparse. New Years Eve party was attended, black eyes peas and greens were eaten, school started back, and resolutions have been made. We are moving full force into 2011.
Currently, I am staring out my office window at 4 inches of snow, with more falling. (Thus explaining my free time to sit at the blog and drink cup after cup of coffee.) The boys are playing amazingly well together, waiting for their daddy to come home and take them sledding. My itunes play in the background.
I have considered letting the blog die a sad internet death. But, I have decided to keep it breathing, however lightly. I need an occasional outlet to write and post pictures.
I am reminded everyday that time moves on, regardless of me and my desires. My boys get older, regardless of how much I wish I could freeze time. People get older. Parents, grandparents, even my poor schnazuer. It is enevitable. We are told in Job 12: "Is not wisdom found among the aged? Does not long life bring understanding?" So, getting older can't be all bad, right?
On Friday afternoon, I had a minor breakdown. I realized Ryan has 2 loose teeth. And he has started reading some words. And he will be 5 in less than 4 months. And he wants us to sign him up for baseball this Spring. And he will go to Kindergarten in the Fall. And I am 35 and I will turn 36 in September. And that's it. And I lost it.
So, like any rational person, I have decided I will run. I have signed up for the Country Music half-marathon in April. I got up Saturday morning and ran 4 miles. The most I have ever run in my entire life is 5 miles and that was over 7 years ago, before Will was born. And it wasn't too bad. I survived. And if it wasn't presently dumping snow, I would be outside running right now.
So, that's all I know. That is my life right now.
But, it's not about me. As Max Lucado says in his book "It's Not About Me, 'our role is simply to reflect God's glory.' I am simply a human sinner forgiven by God's grace. My hope is to make a difference by reflecting some of the light God has graciously shone down upon me.
1 comment:
Glad you aren't going to let it die...I understand going at it a little slower though. Sometimes it seems like I write about the same boring stuff. I am hoping to get better especially once Matt leaves...it will be away for him to read about what is going on while he is gone. I can't believe Ryan has 2 loose teeth! Madison has none, Caleb has only lost 2 and Taylor still has about 10 to lose.
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